Challenges Don’t Keep You From Your Dreams – They Move You Towards Them.
Have you ever noticed that it’s truly the darkest just before the dawn?
I don’t know about you but I sure did and now every time it gets really tough and the whole world seems to be collapsing right in front of my eyes, and it doesn’t feel like I’m going to live another day, every time that happens – like when I run out of money because of some emergency or careless spending, or somebody cancels coaching or training sessions when I really need the money, or I’m on the verge of being homeless, actually I am technically already homeless since the only place I might come back to is my parents’ home back in Siberia, every time something like that happens I know that I’m on the verge of a breakthrough. I’ll figure something out, find a job that will pay at the very last moment, or somebody offers help, or circumstances change and everything will turn out even better than I planned in the first place.
That happens to me all the time.
It really feels like at this point in my life I’m training a “resilience muscle”.
And I do think that it’s due to all the big dreams and goals I have for myself.
You see, I believe that I can’t get what I want in life, what I dream about, like becoming a successful writer who draws, life/health coach, performing dancer who also sings jazz and plays saxophone, fitness wear and accessories designer who also models, a catalyst who inspires people to become the best they can be by unlocking their full potential, successful business owner and an idea machine, world traveler, culture explorer, passionate language learner and amateur travel writer who also takes good pictures, space traveler and self-experimenter – I can’t get any of that unless I change a huge part of myself.
That is who I always see myself in my dreams and visions.
Maybe not being all that at the same time though.
When I’m getting closer to becoming some part of that grand vision that’s when I feel the best, that’s when I feel like I really living it to the fullest.
But I still have so much self-doubt, so much insecurities I need to work through that I very often sabotage myself and end up staying in my comfort zone having invented one excuse or the other why I can’t do something, why I’m not good enough.
I don’t go to a key meeting with a great potential client or possible investor who is very interested in investing in one of my ideas (and oh boy I have many!), I don’t attend and event that will bring new people and experiences into my life, don’t attend a class that might give me an idea for some amazing project. I don’t do any of that just because the night before I either made myself sick with food or invented for myself some urgent errand that I need to take care of, or I indulge in some relationship drama, it might be anything.
Most challenges are here to make us get out of our shell, our comfort zone, make us do what we otherwise wouldn’t do and make us into what we need to be to turn our dreams into our reality.
These days I’m making real progress though. I finally stopped struggling resisting the change coming. I accept every moment and circumstance exactly as it is, as it comes into my life because I know that this exact moment is here to move me forward towards my dream.
Everything works for me, not against me.
And I mean every single thing. I live through those moments fully aware, do what needs to be done being the best me I can be, learn the lesson I need to learn, get rid of yet another self-limiting belief to make one step further to becoming the person I see myself being.
I still get insecure and nervous when some challenge comes my way but I’m aware of its true nature and purpose.
I just take a deep breath, make myself excited about the possibility to grow and get closer to my dream vision and:
Get up from my ass, dress up for success and shop up for my life.
And things move, things change. I see the progress every time I manage to deal with uncomfortable challenging situation like coaching a person who is twice older than me, very wealthy and successful in business (financial wealth and business success are the areas where I succeeded the least at this point), or like writing these posts every day about my experience all the time having doubts that it will ever be of any value to anyone including myself.
I know I have a lot of value to offer as a life/health coach, nutritionist and personal trainer, person who dares to live life on my own terms, accepting life as it is, being creative, passionate, living it to the fullest every moment, working through my challenges and being open about them. I’m a person of many talents. In my heart I know my true value. I’m just not perfect, if I was I would be dead probably.
Things change every day now. I just do things when I feel a pull to do so and let go of all my doubts and insecurities even if just for a moment. I live, I grow, I learn. I am awake and I am free.
What happens next? I don’t know. But I’m here to find out.
Learn it. Live it. Give it.